Excuse my absence. I’ve been moving house, and unsurprisingly my telecommunications provider was not terribly supportive.
I love to write. I just haven’t quite got the hang of interpretive dance yet, which might be part of it, but in any case, I find blogging a lovely way to reflect.
Today, I need to indulge in some reflections which are not new for me, and for that reason may have popped up on here before. To be honest, I can’t remember. But today it is especially important to me.
There have been a number of people in my life who have changed it, irrevocably, and probably have no idea. Many of these are professional acquaintances; mostly I’ve lost contact with them.
On some occasions, I’ve recognised their impact early enough that I could thank them. In writing, always – to convey the depth of my gratitude in person would be nigh on impossible. The temptation to slip into flippancy is irresistable to me.
For the past nine months, I have worked with a colleaguewho is 1 year my chronological junior, and 1 year and a seemingly infinite amount my professional senior. He is also my friend, despite the fact that we communicate almost entirely in insults, derisive statements and threats.
In addition to the important clinical skills and knowledge he has imparted, I am so grateful for his skill in negotiating the difficult ground of being my ‘boss’. Not just in the sense that he socialises with me/us outside of work and then has to direct me, but in the sense that of all people for whom he could have to do this, I am potentially the most difficult. I seem to give the impression of disrespect, even when I don’t mean it. And part of this colleague’s delightfulness is that he has a healthy dose of self-doubt, despite his exceptional skills.
Last shift with him today, and I feel certain we’ll lose touch. I’ve learnt a huge amount from him, and I don’t even have the intestinal fortitude to tell him, even if it would make a difference.
I hope others are lucky enough to find the type of mentors I have found. And I hope you have the courage to thank them.